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Dearrrrhisereld
Alectriciti
There's so much I want to say but you probably won't bother reading. This will be a quick one. Many of our friends think I'm over emotional. You may even think the same. But do you not realize how fragile life is? I feel like you took it for granted when I saved your life. You told me yourself, what I was writing was preventing you from joining the undead. I risked my life for you! Gave my life for you. But that doesn't make me a hero, no. You've seen through me. You know I wanted something in return. That is you. I do want you Rhisereld. I don't want to be known as a selfish elf... But knowing your safe with Natheus now is enough. I did my job. But I'm going underground now. I'm sure you remember all the times I chased after you when you told me not to. I can learn to respect that. Let me tell you this. Natheus will never love you as much as I did. Not until he realizes what it's like to be living every moment of his LIFE protecting the one he loves. Not until he realizes that at any moment, he could be destroyed by the undead. Natheus is a good guy. I see why you like him. Every moment around you two pains me. Because I wanted something out of it. I do want you! I want you so badly so madly so much! To make sure you're safe! I- *this page has been torn out* :: :: :: :: :: :: :: take us alive. Before I leave, let me tell you the truth. Let me tell you what love is. Love is patient, kind, gentle, selfless, pure, perfect, NEVER-FAILING. Love, love is what saved your life. It was... needless to say, my love. It's stuck in my memory, every- *this page has also been torn out* :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: :: *let's face it, the rest of this book has been torn out... but you faintly see words where the ink sank through the pages...* :: :: :: You are reaching... ...intertwined as one... ...lust for death... ...help you anymore... ...as much as i... ...pigman riding a cow... ...natheus and you have a.... ...life. i love... :: :: :: *you're not quite sure what the "Pigman riding a cow" was all about... but you find this on the last page...* :: :: :: :: :: :: I went far for you. *scibbles out: "it wasn't worth it"*...... it was SO worth it. No one will ever love you like I have. Smile and relax.  Farewell.