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My Current State
KarmaDelta
I dont know what to do with my life anymore. :: :: It seems that I lost the one thing keeping me bound to this world. I save her and she changes. The moves on without me onto another. That is not fair at all to me. I dont think anyone can fill the void that she left in my heart. I could find another but it may never be the same. :: :: Some days ago I stood atop the highest tree I can find in Laurelin, I wanted to jump. To end it there. I problably would never even get attention that way anyways so why not I take my life. I feel that there are some in this world that I wish to kill. Like that Tekaro and Aedan. I wish to have them jailed and tortured. I dont want them living. They took the one thing precious in my life away from me. I want blood in exchange. But I dont know if I can handle it. :: :: I may just either end my life, kill them if I could, or find another to fill the whole. She was the first women I loved and she said her old body was a lie. It leaves me dissapointed. And I hope whoever reads this knows 1 thing. :: :: It is to not do anything bad when your fiance changes and leaves you for another in the amount of time it took to help her. It is not worth it. Ill just find another for now. If I could atleast. All I ask for is happiness and I cant have it. :: :: Some world we line in.