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The Search
DecoLamb
I am at a loss. I have tried utter defiance and sheer submission. I have tried indiffrence as well as dogged affection. I have attacked him as well as sacrificed myself to defend him. I even performed a Blood Oath to assist him. I have shown him my fear, and even the taint within. :: Yet still he does not command my soul as I wished. I have run from him, I have been taken from him, I have slinked back to him. I have hid people from him, I have drawn people in for him to slaughter. :: ::Yet still, he does not master me. :: :: I am starting to suspect that he is not the one I need. Jack has power, yes... But maybe not enough.. :: :: I desire a true master. One to command me in such a way that my very soul shakes in awe. :: :: Jack seems to be to soft... :: :: Granted, my true master will show a soft hand now and again. However, I need one that can control me, bend my will perfectly to him. :: I am Decora Luath Caoimeh. I am Decora the Crimson. I have slain men with just a hand. I have torn eyes from the heads of giants. I have traversed far and wide, high and low. I have twisted men in my fingers for years with ease and without thought. :: :: But where is the one that that will twist me? :: Where is the one, who's simple gaze penetrates my soul, peers into it's depths? :: Where is the one I look to in adoration, bow my head to in subserviance? :: How long must I search to find you, my Commander, my Owner, My Lord, my God.. :: :: :: Where are you, my Master?