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Aaron's Journal
Xeniith
Day 1 in Aegis: I recently arrived in Aegis, the people here seem to be very strange. There are very few who seem down to Earth. It seems there everyone is always trying to be the tough guy. I hate people who act as if they're hardening by physical and mental pain when there's real people who have been.... People like me, who have endured all of the worst and endure it every day. My mind is slowly drifting to pieces because of Xeniith, I want him out!  Day 5 in Aegis: I recently met a kind, yet naive young elf named Rattalyn. She seems so full of energy and life that it almost makes me forget my sorrows. If only I could. Day 15 in Aegis: I can't forget her, no matter what... I think I'm in love with her. I've never felt this way since I first met Alysia... I must declare my love for her soon, I can't keep it in anymore. Day 32 in Aegis: I told her what I felt, only for her to say that she didn't feel the same way that I did. I feel it again, the same thing I felt when I left Alysia. It's terrible. Day 42 in Aegis: Not long ago, I met Rattalyn's friend Torok, only to find that he is the one that Rattalyn loves. I feel so much rage inside of me right now, I can't stand it! I feel like I've lost something I've worked all of my life for. <Many pages have been torn out> Day 124 in Aegis: I feel so empty inside, I've lost Rattalyn, and my friend Whitesoul now. There's just... Nothing left for me anymore. There is no home for me. No place. Day 154 in Aegis: Sora. That's her name. The Sora I know... And have fallen in love with. I never thought I'd get over my lost loves... But here I am again. She seems just like me, her tortured life so similar to mine. It seemed as if it was love at first sight, and that's almost true. Day 193 in Aegis: I have proposed our marriage to Sora, and she accepted! We are to be married soon, our love will last forever. My sorrows are over now, so I have no reason to write this journal anymore. Day 234 in Aegis: Sora has disappeared, the love of my life, gone, again! When will this end? I think I'm just... Done living. I seem to have no reason left to live. I need to think about the actions I will take next. Day 283 in Aegis: I recently met with Xeniith again, and he suggested I become stronger... And darker. He wanted me to change myself, but I can't bring myself to a darker self. I still care about him, though, I can't stop that. He's just a confused person. Sometimes I regret removing him, though. Day 300 in Aegis: I lost yet another love of my life, Abreal. I promised her that our paths would meet again, but I didn't know what I was saying. I've been through enough in my life, and the Earth and sky beckon me. They pull me apart, and I can't take it anymore. I am going to die. If anyone is reading this, don't bother with your pity, because I'm gone now. <The rest of the page is covered in a blood-signature>